Thursday, November 26, 2009

Thanksgiving 2009

Was a pretty good day in many ways. Lots of food, fun and family. My brothers were together for the first time in a loooooong time. That was good. Don was feeling good, after spending the night in the hospital earlier in the week. I was glad to see that.

Every year it gets a little more strange to go spend the holidays with the ex and his family. Not sure why but it does. Maybe because the kids are grown and don't need my "protection" anymore? Really not sure. I think a part of it is because I missed someone- TD&H, who was hundreds, maybe thousands of miles away. But then maybe not, since we don't do well on holidays...another topic for another post.

Or maybe it was the bittersweet fact that this was the last holiday that I will have with my daughter living with me. At least until I'm old and in diapers. Not a pleasant thought. YUCK! She moves today. I know she's ready for it. But I'm not. Or not as ready as I could be, but then I might never be totally ready. Mom misses her already. OK- I know, she's going to be like 5 minutes away. But it won't be the same. Maybe it will be better. Who knows.


Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Having More Patience

My scripture for today was Zechariah 4:6- "Not by might nor by power but by my spirit", says the Lord of Hosts.

What did that mean for me, for today? It meant that God doesn't work in the way I would, or in the time I would. He works in His time, through the Spirit. So, for today I was going to try and have more patience, and wait for His time, to pray more, to be grateful for what I have and not to worry about everything under the sun.

I didn't do very well at much of this. Well, I did pray more than I have been. That's good. I'm on a mission to have a deeper faith...or at least get back to where I used to be. So that was good. Patience, well, that went out the window about 10 minutes into the work day. AND let me just tell you- I prayed a lot throughout the day for more patience. For more forgiveness. For more grace, for myself and others. Did it help? I'm not sure, but I did get through the day without confronting anyone. That's a good thing. So, prayer helped.

Worrying...I always worry. I think it's hardwired deep in my soul. I worry about everything. I wish I didn't. This season, the holiday season, always brings more worries. That, I have figured out, lies in my childhood, and most of my adult life as a single parent. Life hasn't always been easy. But it has been fun, and full of love. And that's what counts. So, it's all good.

Hopefully tomorrow I will do better on whatever my scripture is, and how it makes me feel. I'll let you know.

Prayers and love,

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Trying to do this every day is (almost) impossible

I've really tried to do this every day, or, I should say , I have really thought about doing this every day. But actually sitting down and doing it is more a problem. After a long day at work on the computer, I really have very little desire to do it.Hmmm.

That thought - and ones like it- have helped me figure out something. And you get to hear it- aren't you the lucky ones! (maybe not?) Ok- the thought's roots lie in faith. More specifically, what I feel is a lessening of faith. Maybe not a lessening, more of a distance. I feel like my faith isn't what it once was, isn't what it should be, or what I want it to be. I think a part of this lie in the feeling that worship is now a job, or more of a chore. It's hard to balance what needs to be done at the church and what I can do. There's lots that need done, and I feel that I should be a good minister's "wife" and do as much as I can. But then I feel overwhelmed.

I can't , or don't, really talk to the SO about this anymore. It causes too great of a conflict. At least sometimes. Sometimes it just requires too much of an effort. And energy I don't have. So, where does that leave me? I wonder if there is a support group for women who date ministers and are really involved in their churches. Somewhere we could go to "let our hair down", gripe about all the challenges, and have somebody understand. Maybe I can start one. Nah, takes too much energy.

So, here's the plan. Getting back to where I was, at least in faith. Hey, if I could do that in other ways, like, oh say, lose 20 pounds- OR BETTER YET, 20 YEARS!- that would be nice. But right now, I'll focus on faith. So, it means getting closer to God, finding ways to feed spiritually- like attending service at a church that feeds me. That doesn't mean I give up my church- just that I embrace that one feeds me and one allows me to hopefully help feed others. That's a good balance I hope.

Ok. hands hurt so that's a sign to quit.
Love and blessings,

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Ok, I've Missed A Few...

Hi! It's really hard to do this every day- especially on the weekends. There is just not enough time in the day. And to be honest, after spending the day from hell at work on the computer, I really have been avoiding it at home. Seems I have ulnar nerve damage in both hands. Don't ask me what that is-- all I know is that my hands hurt REALLY BAD. All the time. Kinda really sucks.

So, what's going on here. Baby girl's getting ready to move out. Her room, and most of the upstairs is packed to the brim with boxes. She moves out on the holiday weekend- which is the same weekend as my birthday. Happy birthday to me. NOT! I know I should be happy about this, it's time, she's ready but it's a huge change for me. And as many of the nearest and dearest to my heart will tell you, I don't do change well. That is totally such an understatement.

Getting ready for the holidays. Making lots of stuff, which is really hard considering I have Ulnar nerve damage, whatever the heck that is. But I have to make stuff. It's like hard wired in me to create. Create lots of stuff. I'm making lots of presents, because, I like making things for people. It's more personal. And I'm making a Christmas quilt (photos coming)- but that probably won't get done since it's for me, and things for me tend to take a back seat to eberything else. (I wonder how unhealthy that is?) So, look for photos of everything. One of the things I'm really excited about is the painting I'm going to do for Steph. Ican't wait.

Guess I can start getting excited about having a room in the house where I can leave all my artwork spread around and not have to worry about putting it up....
until next time ( maybe tomorrow?)

Saturday, November 7, 2009

ET Phone Home

Missed a day yesterday posting. Had a crappy day at work... maybe more on that later. For now- my oldest is MIA. If I can find a photo I will post it. He was last seen on the Louisville, KY area. If he reads this, or anyone else that knows him reads this and has seen him, please let me know.


Thursday, November 5, 2009

Meet Flappie

Anybody have one of these? It's my virtual pet at work. The premise is that you feed it- the chicken leg, play with it- the smiley face, and discipline it- when needed- the !!, make it take naps- the zz's- and someday it will grow into something. Not sure what.

Let me just tell you about my vp. He's 34 today, well yesterday really, but hey- he made it to 34. My record was 29 before this, but my boss killed him when I was on vacation. Poor Flaps. He was I revived him. But I think we have a problem...see, he's lived his whole life in the dark., as evidenced by the stars in the background. He's supposed to live just like us, daylight and dark. But he doesn't.

So, I've come to the strong conclusion that my Flappie is a vampire. It's the only reason I can think of that he lives in the dark. Well, another reason could be that my mac at work is just a piece of garbage, and won't update his status. But it's nicer to think that he's (it's?) a vampire on some level.

I know. So random. Still sad- see yesterday's post. Trying to look on the bright side. Trying to smile.
Flappie makes me smile.
Blessings and love,

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Day 3- Rampant Emotions

Hi. Today's been a rough day. Started out with the people in my house ignoring and bitching at me. Not a good way to start any day. Proceeded on to work and all the tension there. It's not a stretch to say I really dislike my job- for lots of reasons- but right now the tension is so thick...

Then- I tore a hole in my pants-- way to go ace. I would post a photo but then the whole Internet- or at least the people who read this- up to like 1500+- would see my fat rear end. So, that's just not gonna happen.

Then home again. I had cooked in the crock pot, and was planning a nice evening- had the materials so I could work on the bulletin- thus freeing up my Thursday evening- hey, maybe I could see that beau of mine BUT I got some unsettling news. While it's good news on one hand, I'm really sad about it one the other. My daughter is moving out.

I repeat...MY DAUGHTER IS MOVING OUT. While a part of me is glad to see her at this crossroad of life a HUGE part of me is just not ready for it. I am very sad. There is no other way to describe it right now. I'm sure the sadness won't last. And I'm sure I will find lots of things to use her room for. Like a art/reading/office. Among other things. And she's not taking the dogs- which makes me happy. I would be one sad pup, pun intended, if she and the pups left at the same time.

But right now I'm just sad. Tomorrow will be different. I hope.

Pray for us, pray for her and her new start on life. She's had a good foundation- she's a good kid, i.e. young adult, and she's ready for this. But mom's struggling...

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Day 2...and the thought is...

The thought for the day...or rather a question. What did I do now? I find myself asking that question concerning lots of things. Tension at work, lack of communication in relationships, things at church, things with friends.
I don't think it will surprise anyone that I'm really tired of that question. Makes me want to throw the towel in on lots of things. But I don't -- why you might ask- well, I'm Irish- pretty stubborn. I really just don't like to quit.

BUT--- I would like to have more days when I don't ask that question than I do...
maybe tomorrow will be a better day.

Monday, November 2, 2009

Simple Pleasures

In honor of National blogging month I'm going to try and do this every day this month. OK_ let me be the first to say I ALREADY MISSED A DAY. Oh well. I have good intentions.

Some of life's simple pleasures...

Matching all the socks in a load of laundry

A good meal and then a clean kitchen

morning kisses (from people and pets)

sunny fall days, and pretty falling leaves

lazy days off reading a good book

a day when my hands aren't hurting so much I can't function

I loves yous

til tomorrow....

Tuesday, October 20, 2009


Another Sweetest Day has come and gone, and with it came a realization of sorts. For the last couple of major holidays, and birthdays I've been a little disappointed when RW hasn't popped the "big question". But in many ways I've been very grateful that hasn't happened...because if it did, well I would have to think about what to do. And in that thought lies the realization... I'm very ambiguous on the subject of marriage.

Getting engaged sounds wonderful. But once you get engaged I guess at some time you have to, oh I don't know, really get married? I guess you can't just be engaged forever...even if it would work for you?

I'm really torn about this. I don't understand why it is I get (a little) upset about it. I really don't want to get married at this point. I mean, I love him totally. BUT (huge but) I've been single so long that, well, I like being single. I like not having to answer to anyone. Even though I guess I do "answer" to him on some level.

And then there's the differences... like I'm female and he's male. I know, I know, that makes for a great start. Sure would make sex something desirable, lol. But really, he's so male sometimes, not wanting to talk about feelings and such, and I'm so female, and wanting to talk. The way it is now, I can go home (to my own space) and get over the anger or upsetedness of not getting to talk on my own terms. Which is cool. Which I like.

And lets talk pets. I am totally a pet person. My dogs sleep with me. I like (usually) the fact that my dogs sleep with me. They really aren't dogs, they're people in disguise. I like my dogs/people. He's not a pet person. He has fish. Now, while I like his fish- especially the "wiggle" fish, they're fish. They don't cuddle with you. They don't wake you up at the crack of dawn because they need a kiss, or to go out.

And talk about opposites. I'm totally OCD about organization...and well, he's not. Places like Organized Living and IKEA are a little slice of heaven to me. I have one place- ONE- in my house where library books go. AND ONLY ONE. Which isn't him. And that's ok... for him. I like the fact that all the laundry gets done on one day and then put away. I've worked hard to instill that in my children. They get it, they get me. I'm anal, and it's ok. They still love me. Would he still love me if I freaked out because, OMG, it's Sunday and there's still laundry that's not done or put away?

And let's not mention that fact that well, hey, marriage- been there, done that, bought the tee shirt, AND OUTGREW IT. Now, I know that I got married at a young age, and divorced, and that my marriage wasn't what it should have been. I get that. I get that I also have grown, and have different ideals now than I had then. But it still remains that I failed. And I don't like failure. I don't handle it well. I don't want to fail again.

But there lies the fact that well, marriage would make things better in so many ways. I love him, and can't imagine life without him. I miss sex, and would someday love to share that with him... and that makes marriage a pre-req. Hmmm, what to do, what to do.

Maybe we could just get engaged for a long time and see where it went. I'm girly enough to want the ring. I guess God will lead us where we need to go. I'm sure there will be more about this to come. Ambiguity makes one think.


PS. The flowers were my Sweetest Day gift. They are lovely...and more than the card that I got him.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009


Ever want to change your life, but just don't know how? That's where I'm at right now. Something needs to change, I'm just not sure what.

Maybe I need a location change- wouldn't that be nice. Maybe somewhere nice and warm... high of 80 everyday and sunny, low of 50. I wonder if such a place exists?

For sure, a job change. I really need something more challenging.

Maybe a new house? Nah, probably not... I'm just now getting this one to the point where I really like it.

A new relationship? Nah, love the minister too much...but there are things I would change about it, if I could. More "us" time, a greater level of intimacy. I know, I knew what I was getting into dating a minister. Lots of other obligations, they work weekends, sex is a no-no, yada yada yada. And that's cool. I guess, well mostly cool. Kinda scary to think that to change that aspect means marriage. Been there, done that, bought the tee-shirt AND OUTGREW IT!

A new hobby. Hmmm. I wonder if I can find a hobby that doesn't involve the use of my hands. They're pretty useless right now. Perhaps - a BIG perhaps- that's one of the reasons for the unrest right now. I really can't do anything without the constant pain. It gets old. I want it to change. Oh well, tests this week on the hands...hopefully that will bring a concrete diagnosis and treatment.
Pray for resolution. I need it.

Friday, August 28, 2009

Ill and Abused

What a sorry looking plant, isn't it? I've had this plant for more than 20 years- longer than most of my adult relationships. It's moved with me 3 times. It's been through good times, when it was really healthy and growing big and strong. It started out in a little 4" pot and eventually grew big enough to be transplanted a number of times, finally ending up in the pot it's in- a pretty large planter. But it's not having a very good time right now. It kinda makes me sad, and I wonder if it's a reflection of certain aspects of my life. More on that topic at a later date.

Anyway, about 2 years ago it was huge- overflowing, with vines growing everywhere and bright green leaves. Last year when Jimmy passed away people sent planters, and I brought most of the plants home. I had 14 plants spread throughout the house, and this one made 15. I loved it. It felt like I was outdoors all the time. But all those nice plants that were sent to the funeral brought thing along with them besides sympathy. Among those things were spider mites. Let me tell you how gross those are. OK- well anything with the word spider in it is gross. I have major nightmares about spiders. I have one recurring nightmare that is just horrible. I'll share that one of these days- I try not to think about it because I'm afraid I'll "talk" it up.

Anyway- the SMites- I ended up having to throw away all of the plants that we received. That was pretty upsetting to me. I probably should have gotten rid of this one too, but hey, I've had it for so long. It's lasted longer than I was married. That means something to me. I know, it can't talk back, or argue with me. Probably why it's still here. It just sits there, and I can ignore it pretty much of the time. With my life that is a good thing. Unless you can demand my attention, chances are you aren't getting it.

Anyway, I started to make progress in bringing this back to life. It had some new growth, and some shiny green leaves. But then all of the sudden it started looking really bad again. I couldn't figure out what was going on. I hadn't changed anything I was doing. Well, I figured it out the other night...
...Seems that Madi, the princess and ruler of the house, has taken a liking to the leaves of this plant. She likes to chew on it. She likes to chew on everything but REALLY, REALLY likes the plant. I came into the living room the other day to find the 6lb chi sitting- yes SITTING, in the pot, ALONG with the plant, chewing on its stem.
So, this is all I have left of something I've had for more than 20 years. I had to do some serious trimming to get rid of all the vines Madi had broken and chewed on. It's so sad looking. One scrawny little vine.
I hope it comes back. And I hope that it's not poisonous to pups. As much as I want to strangle the princess for eating my plant- I kinda like having her around.
Anybody got any ideas on how to save a plant's "life"?

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

I Know You Shouldn't Blog About Work...

HI! I've read enough blogs to know that you can get "dooced" about blogging about work. But I can't take it anymore!!!! My computers suck! Ok, so this isn't about people- good thing, since I don't want to get dooced- it's about hardware. Specifically, really OLD hardware. Even more specific- really old hardware that is driving me totally BONKERS!

I have 2 computers at my work station, the main being a Power Mac G4. A 2004 Power Mac G4 to be specific. With 256 RAM. Is anyone seeing the problem yet? Add to that I'm trying to run the Adobe suite CS3. I would love to upgrade to CS4 but... I'm on a OLD MAC. I can't even do any updates to the CS3 well because I keep getting a error message. Which totally sucks. Not to mention that when I try to print from Acrobat it cuts off half the page. I don't know why. Can't figure it out. It's really frustrating. And heaven forbid trying to have more than one app open and in use at once. Opening Photoshop means that I'm pretty sure that nothing else is going to work right. Just for an example. I had ID open today, and tried- really tried- to open a 256 kb Illustrator file. The color wheel spun for 10 minutes--- 10 MINUTES0 for 256kb. I was ready to scream!

And the PC- oh the wonderful PC. In case you can't tell that is pure, undulated sarcasm. With a cap S. Same suite on it, just works a whole lot slower, if that's possible. I won't even try to open more than one app- at least I can try on the MAC. Other problems with it- for some reason, which I can't explain, I can't print from my email. Which is pretty frustrating, when I need to print something to hand off to somebody or to file, and can't. I don't know how old the PC is- I know it's "younger" than the MAC, but it has so many ISSUES. The main one being that it has very little security. I'M CONVINCED IT'S BEEN HIGH-JACKED-- BUT NOBODY BELIEVES ME. It makes for a very tough day.

Does anyone feel my daily, hourly pain? A little sympathy would go a little way to helping me feel better. A baseball bat would make it a whole lot better!

Saturday, August 22, 2009

The New Deck

How awesome is this? Compliments of my son and brother- and has only cost me 400.00. What a deal. It's huge. Spans 2 sides of my house. Love it. Now if I could just get the bugs to leave me alone long enough to enjoy it.
Let me tell you how peaceful it is to sit out here in the morning while I get my caffeine fix. I am so blessed. Still needs latice, and then stained, but it's a work in progress.
I almost don't recognize my house. In the last 2 years we've put on new siding, installed new windows and doors, had a roof put on, "got" a new kitchen and laundry room and some other, minor stuff. Love it. There's still a bunch of work to be done on the inside- all cosmetic, with the exception of the bathroom remodel, but it's coming along. Wish Lori could see it. I like to think she can.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Not Sure What To Do With Myself...

It's kinda strange that school starts next week... and I'm not enrolled. It's been a long haul. And truth be told, I'm a little lost with all this time. The summer hasn't gone quite as I imagined it would. I thought I would have lots of time to work on all the art projects I've started but not had time with being in school to finish...but that hasn't happened yet. I thought Richard and I would spend bunches more time together than we've been able to do when school is in session... but we've seen each other less than when I was in school (at least I think that's the case). I wish I could figure out all the reasons that I haven't done the things I thought I would, or spent the time the way I thought but I think it boils down to...I've been really lazy. Not that being lazy is a bad thing. And I guess if I asked other people about it they might not agree, but I feel really lazy. I guess I can say I took the summer off.
But now it's time to get back on the ball. Get involved in more activities. Spend more time with the loved ones, and quit being such a introvert. Jump back into the design/art projects. Get the website up and the portfolio together. Freelance. Dream. Explore. Pray.
Anyone interested in helping hold me accountable to my dreams, desires, wishes and goals? I need all the help I can get...

The image above is one of the few projects I've completed this summer. It's a quad-panel display for church. Not sure why but the color comes across as orange when it's really a purplish blue. Oh well. It's been fun. I hope to install it this weekend.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Living the Dream, Odds and Ends, and Jon and Kate

I just need to figure out whose dream- lol! I have way too much time on my hands and no real desire to fill it up with anything special. I've invested some thought into thinking about getting my master's degree.... but am not there yet. Too tired of being worn out I think. Not sure what I would do with it- I would love to teach, but am really just not sure.

Steph and I just got back from our annual journey to DC. I would so move there if I didn't have ties to Cincy. I have invested some time into looking at the job market up there- actually it's better than here. I wonder if I can get everyone I love to move with me? Nah, I didn't think so. Still, it's a thought. The attached photo is the fountain at the sculpture garden on the mall. We had a great time- she met a "boy"- who just happens to live in Dayton- how funny is that. He's a really nice guy- got his act together, college educated, successful--the type of guy a mom could see her daughter with.

Ok- I am going to admit I have a Jon and Kate Plus 8 addiction. I really do- it's all Steph's fault. (How's that for not being accountable?) Anyway, I got hooked on the first few episodes, and that was it. So, like 10 million other people I turned into the season premier the other day-- and was appalled at what I saw. I feel so sorry for the family, more so for the kids. They are the innocent ones in that whole mess. One of the things that really bother me about the whole thing is the public's attitude. It's like the world wants that marriage to fail. It's terrible. So- as a person who firmly believes in God's love, forgiveness and redemption- saving grace I am asking anyone that happens to read this blog to pray for the power of God's saving grace to touch and heal this family, and protect them from themselves, the vultures of the world and anyone who wishes them harm. Instead of rooting (sp?) for the demise of their marriage, let's pray for healing and forgiveness, and for God to work in them to make the family stronger.I don't think that's too much to ask. Through God all things are possible.

Monday, May 4, 2009

The End of a Looooong Road

5-9-09 marks the end of one of the longest and hardest roads I've ever embarked on- the completion of my BFA in graphic design. That might not sound like much, and in the grand scheme of things it isn't... but for me it's a huge accomplishment-- one I never thought I would achieve.
If someone had told me years ago that I would be able to achieve this dream I would have sadly laughed at them. Getting married straight out of high school, and then proceeding to have have 3 children, which I ended up raising by myself, went a long way to discouraging any personal dreams I had. And college was one of the biggest. It's funny, but raising kids-- by myself-- was a much easier task. To me it was intuitive- lots of love, patience and understanding and you can get through it.
I wish I had blogged or journaled about school- but better late than never. Over the next few weeks I'm going to post about the experience of being the "old lady" in classes filled with twenty somethings-and all the challenges and growth I faced. And how God got me through it.
OK- this is truly a sad, funny story. I probably shouldn't admit it-- and as I look back I am laughing my rear end off. How dumb was I???
One of the first classes I took was a computer graphics class. It taught you the basics of computer design- my first intro to Photoshop and Illustrator. But before I go into that--- let me just tell you about the first day. We walked into the Mac lab at RWC, and after the teacher introduced herself, she told us to turn on the computer. Now, this wasn't just any computer. It was the first model of the G4 macs. -- A pretty impressive machine to say the least-- but one that was completely foreign to some who had extremely limited experience with a very basic IBM. I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO TURN IT ON!!! AT ALL. I HAD TO ASK! I had the strongest feeling that the Professor really had doubts about my abilities to complete the class. I DID TOO! And that feeling would persist for a good part of the quarter- but more on that later.
For now, I want to share the scripture verse that really, really held me up when I felt like I was too stupid to continue- and that happened often.

Preserve sound judgement and discernment,
Do not let them out of your sight;
They will be life for you,
An ornament to grace your neck.
Then you will go on your way safely,
And your foot will not stumble,
When you lie down, you will not be afraid.
When you lie down, your sleep will be sweet.
Have no fear of sudden disaster,
Or of the ruin that will overtake the wicked,
For the Lord will be your confidence,
And will keep your foot from being snarled.
Proverbs 3:21-26

Oh, and by the way-- I ended up acing that class. Go figure.

Thursday, April 16, 2009


I came to the conclusion today that I have a love/hate affair with email. I guess the same can be said of snail mail- even though all that tends to bring anymore is bills, since everyone now uses email for communication. But email, it's different. If you're lucky to have an account that offers really good spam protection you can almost be assured that everything in your inbox is stuff you want to read. Which is cool. When I went on vacation last year I didn't check my email--- big mistake. I think there were over 500 messages when I got back- but only a few that mattered to me-- hence the new email address!
Ok, the love/hate thing. Since switching addresses I have found there is a direct correlation between the number of emails sent and the number received. (DUH!) Anyway, it really bummed me out when I opened my inbox to see no new emails from people I want to stay in touch with. THEN I realize that to receive you have to "give." And with the lack of time to "chat", well, I guess it goes without saying that no one wants to chat to someone who doesn't respond. So, while I love to stay in touch, I hate to stay in touch too. Does that make any sense?
Anybody else ever feel like this???

Friday, April 10, 2009

Newest Member of the Family

Say hi to Madi- the newest addition to the household. Let me just tell you- it is like having a baby in the house- she needs to be fed on a schedule, taken out at specific times, and generally loved like a baby. Last night I was up later than usual, and the "poor thing" kept crying at me-- she wanted to go to bed, which she couldn't do without me. How sad is that???
And... notice the floor. OK, it's not the greatest photo, it's from my blackberry, which I'm not really used to yet-but you get the idea. Anyway- the floor- if you look really close you can see pieces of it missing. Seems that the madster likes to chew on it. She's found a way to gnaw up pieces of it- which I've found in the strangest places.
But, even with that, she is adorable and fun. I never though I would say this-- but I'm so glad we got her!

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Ever wonder part 2

More thoughts to ponder...

Ever wonder why when you lose weight, you lose it where you don't want to? After all these years it finally looked like I hit puberty-- I had a real chest-- AND DIDN'T HAVE TO BUY PADDED BRAS!!! And now, embracing the new diet- well, lets just say that the best things are the first to go.

Ever wonder why it is McD's started selling fancy coffee??? Do they think they can compete with SB's? Maybe it's just me, but if i want a cheap, fast burger, I'll head to McD's. If I want good coffee, (which I always want, need, crave) I head to SB.

Ever wonder where they come up with the ideas for some of these reality shows and the people that take part in them? I mean really, who wants to be branded a bridezilla? Tha's just what I want to do- go on national tv and show what a b---- I am to the world, NOT!

And what about the movies- another Star Trek. Have all the writers lost all originality and creativity??? Why all the remakes?

Ever wonder why people like me feel the need to post the silly things they think about??

'Til next time, Blessings,

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Ever wonder

Questions for the (?) masses...

Ever wonder why it is you bother to try and do something even when you know it will be met with great resistance?

Ever wonder what God's plan is for you?

Ever wonder what happens to you when you die?

Ever wonder why stale peeps taste so much better than fresh ones?

Ever wonder why watching a movie while cuddling is so much nicer than watching the same movie alone?

Ever wonder why the mindless games are your blackberry are so addicting?

Ever wonder what happens next....?

Playing in photo shop creating water for the thesis project (the creation story)- which is SAID AND DONE!!!

Wednesday, March 11, 2009


Today the twins turned 24. Wow. When did I get so old? Time flies when you're having fun. If someone would have told me that the road would have taken all the twists and turns it did 24 years ago I would not have believed them. My babies are all grown up. Not to mention their older brother - who is MIA- turned 26 not too long ago. I wish he would at least call home-- SO IF YOU READ THIS- DO!!!! I would love to know that you are ok- and tell you how much I love you and am praying for you.
More later.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Another Year

Time flies when you're having fun. Another year is here. Wow. In the final stretch for school and wondering what the next step is. Kinda wondering why I did it- but hey, it was a goal. Check that of my life list. That's a pretty good feeling. Not looking forward to the next step-Looking for a new job scares the you know what out of me- is this a good time to do it? The economy sucks!!!
Things are going pretty well at the church. I'm feeling a little stressed about it. I wonder how preachers' wives do it. Maybe they don't face the same challenges that preacher's S.O.'s do. I sure hope not! I wonder if the conflicts that I face there are normal? I get everything from comments about my relationship, to disrespect for anything and everything that I say or do. Makes me wonder what I'm doing, and why God wants me to do it. One of the best things about it has been the growth in faith I've experienced. I have come to realize that a.- God keeps you going when the going gets rough and b.when He wants you to do something He is consistent. Can't argue with God, ya' know.
Ok- more photos and art work to come. Gallery showing in April- talk about stress. But it's good stress. And I do have a new stress reliever- a new puppy- Mady. Well, it's really Steph's but I get to share. A chi- so small and cute. Once she wakes up I will take a photo and post it. She is so sweet.
Ok- until next time- whenever that might be-
Blessings and love, praise and glory,