Ever want to change your life, but just don't know how? That's where I'm at right now. Something needs to change, I'm just not sure what.
Maybe I need a location change- wouldn't that be nice. Maybe somewhere nice and warm... high of 80 everyday and sunny, low of 50. I wonder if such a place exists?
For sure, a job change. I really need something more challenging.
Maybe a new house? Nah, probably not... I'm just now getting this one to the point where I really like it.
A new relationship? Nah, love the minister too much...but there are things I would change about it, if I could. More "us" time, a greater level of intimacy. I know, I knew what I was getting into dating a minister. Lots of other obligations, they work weekends, sex is a no-no, yada yada yada. And that's cool. I guess, well mostly cool. Kinda scary to think that to change that aspect means marriage. Been there, done that, bought the tee-shirt AND OUTGREW IT!
A new hobby. Hmmm. I wonder if I can find a hobby that doesn't involve the use of my hands. They're pretty useless right now. Perhaps - a BIG perhaps- that's one of the reasons for the unrest right now. I really can't do anything without the constant pain. It gets old. I want it to change. Oh well, tests this week on the hands...hopefully that will bring a concrete diagnosis and treatment.
Pray for resolution. I need it.